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Benny Daniels: Senior Pastor DCC.


“I’m not going to church today!” he declares when he wakes up on Sunday morning. “Why not?” you could ask. The good wife inquires. “I just don’t feel like it, and I’m not sure whether everyone likes me there.” Sister Jones, in fact, I’m very sure she despises me!” The man responds with a rejoinder. “Well, you’ll have to leave.” His wife responds. “What’s up with that?” He inquires. “Because you’re the Pastor!” she exclaims.

Have you ever been there? Don’t respond to that. I haven’t been able to discover much scripture on this, but I believe I am being attacked by a spirit of defeat at least once a week. Because he always arrives on the same day, this little boy must keep a strict routine. He rarely shows up when he’s having a bad day. Monday! It’s always the same day!

If you haven’t pastored or been in ministry for a while, you may not understand.

Other ministers have told me that this Imp, whom I’ll call Defeat, assaults them on Mondays as well. So I guess I’m not the only one that thinks this way.

I’m not one to give up easily. It’s not in my nature to give up. I’m not sure if I’m too obstinate to quit or too foolish to see when it’s time to stop. Samson, for example. Defending a field of lintels against an entire Philistine army. It was just him and the jawbone of a dead donkey.

Was he tough or just stupid for not getting out of the way? We’ve given him a hard time, but I’m concerned for his safety. There wasn’t much for him to work with. Why didn’t he just go back to the beginning (quit) and regroup? Get some assistance, you know. I think I’ve figured it out… He wasn’t obstinate or stupid. He knew what he was doing!

Every week, I’d say, I’m struck by the want to give up. But I’m afraid I won’t be able to! It’s not that I don’t know how. It’s not because I’m a tough guy. Not because I’m too stupid to recognize when it’s safe to come inside from the rain. But it’s because I’m aware of who I am! I’m very aware of who I am! I understand why I’m here!

Most essential, I am aware of my whereabouts. And I’m right in the middle of God’s plan for me.

Why was David unconcerned about being in a battle with a Giant? He understood his presence there served a purpose for his God. He believed that if God wanted him to remain there, God would not allow anything to happen to him that would cause him pain. And even if it injured or killed him, that was fine since it was God’s perfect will.

Knowing you’re in God’s will gives you a sense of security. In fact, knowing you’re doing what God wants you to accomplish is a source of joy. Others will make fun of you for staying put. Your mental competence will be questioned. “Are you insane?” someone once questioned.

Is it simple to be who I am? Is it enjoyable to do what I do? Do I relish ministry’s setbacks and disappointments? Is it possible that I’m a glutton for punishment? No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No Standing with God, on the other hand, brings a sense of calm. Samson was aware of this. David was aware of the situation. This is something I’m learning.

I’m not going anywhere! I’m not going to let my thinking lead me away from where God wants me to be.

I’m sure you can relate to this, whether you’re in charge of a huge or small group of individuals.

The stress of it all might be overpowering at times. But don’t give up! Do not surrender. Don’t give up. Keep going where God wants you to go. Be the person God created you to be. Rest in the knowledge that you are doing His will.

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